Can't we find a middle ground?

I’m totally loving a song by Sanctus Real right now called “The Redeemer”. It’s about God taking the broken and making it new.

I have been thinking about the past 6 months of my life, and both the wreckage in it and the newness that has begun to come out, too, and it’s both painful/humbling/scary/saddening and joyful/incredible/awe-inspiring/exciting. A part of me still thinks I don’t deserve the second chances I have gotten in these past months, causing me to want to reject them, but a part of me is thankful and eager to embrace them. I don’t deserve these second chances and I really should be back at sqaure one with everything in my life, but for some reason people around me haven’t given up on me, even when I was secretly ready to give up on myself.

Through it all, I have learned how deep some of my passions go and how much I am every day in need of God’s intervention in my own stupid ways. I am learning to be more humble, listening, and deliberate, along with learning to pick and choose what I need to plan and be really deliberate about without being over-controlling. It’s a tough line to walk, and one I’m still learning where to draw.I guess above all, I’m thankful and hopeful for continued newness in me and in the people around me.

“The Redeemer” by Sanctus Real
Sometimes I just wanna start over
‘Cause everything looks like a wreck
And I need the courage to carry on
‘Cause I can’t see what’s ahead
And there are places I’ve wished I could be
Battles I’ve wanted to win
Dreams that have slipped through my hands
I may never get back again

But I’m still a dreamer, a believer
Oh, I’ve lost my faith in so many things
But I still believe in You
‘Cause You can make anything newSometimes I just wish we could say
All the things that are easy to hear
Ignore the injustice we see
And explain every unanswered prayer
But I’d rather speak honestly
And wear a tattered heart on my sleeve
‘Cause in the middle of my broken dreams
Redemption is here

And I’m still a dreamer, a believer
Oh, I’ve lost my faith in so many things
But I still believe in You
‘Cause You are the answer, the Redeemer
Oh, I’ve given up on too many things
But I’m not giving up on You
‘Cause You can make anything newI don’t have every answer in life
But I’m trusting You one day at a time
‘Cause You can make a weak heart stay alive forever
This is where heaven and earth collide
I lift my hands and give my life
This is how my weary heart stays alive

Oh, I’m still a dreamer
(This is where heaven and earth collide, I lift my hands and give my life)
Still a believer
(This is how my weary heart stays alive)
You are the answer
(This is where heaven and earth collide, I lift my voice and give my life)
The Redeemer
(This is how my weary heart stays alive)
‘Cause You can make anything new
Yeah, You can make anything new

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