I'm Sorry
This is a response to thoughts concerning me and a friend I haven’t talked to in a while because of what this world has started to do to her. I have judged and shunned her and I didn’t even realize it. I have become a hypocrite and allowed her to turn and start walking away from God without loving and caring enough to stop her. I gave up on her and have messed up our friendship.
I don’t want to be a sterile Christian. I don’t want to only be surrounded by those who are comfortable Christians, who live their lives in their own little boxes. I don’t want to ignore and judge the world because it’s not good enough. I don’t want to live in an enviornment of only “good”, “clean”, and “right”. But I have been. I have become a self-righteous hypocrite, concerned with my wants, desires, hopes, dreams, and life. I have viewed times of service as stepping stones to achieveing what I want to be or do. I have been hidden in myself, too selfish to care about others. I have blocked out the world instead of helping others overcome it. I have wronged people, and I have wronged God in the process.So I am declaring a change. A commitment to be better, and not just wishful thinking, but a set-in-stone, raised-up Ebenezer of change. I will do this differently. And it will be for more than me. It will be for God. I want everything to be for God’s glory. I want to live like I know I should, not like the others do. I want to see the difference and know it is by and for God. But I can’t do it alone. I need God’s help. I need His strength and His commitment. I need it to be about Him.Posted via web from I Search For You On The Horizon | Comment »
